Which Group Do I Choose???

In life, we can always say we have different faces. Some having more than just two. For my case, I have three. Life can be a little difficult especially when it comes to really choosing which face you should really be.

For me, my first face is my class group. We speak mostly in Cantonese and Mandarin. Life seems really great and we can call each other as a gang because we would walk around together and acting cool.

The second face which I have is my Christian group. As the name says it, means we all are Christians and as usual. Life needs to be a little more "holy" compared to the first group. Things can be really fun at times when we work together and solve problems as a group. We have camps and activities together as well and bonding gets easy with them. It is as if life just feels better around them. The sad part is I'm not that close to them and we only meet up for a short period of time in a day sometimes not at all. So life with them is more like a session that will soon pass.

For the third face that I have is the crazy group. This face is a face that many people don't see. Mainly because this face mostly shows with my clicks. There are only three of us in total and we all speak English which isn't a problem. We go crazy and technically we would try to stick together as a group through thick or thin but the sad thing is. Once you get close to a certain type of people, they wouldn't mind holding back their opinions or should I say insults. Life can get really high and sometimes really low as they throw insults in your face without considering your feelings. For example today when one made an insult that ticked me off real bad that I cursed him without even thinking. Anger can get a hold of me at times and I still show it when I really feel angry.

For today, my class group and one of my crazy group went out for a meal. Things seemed really weird as we mostly spoke in Cantonese while my friend could hardly make out a word we were saying. In the end we had to speak in English just to make conversations better between all of us. I really feel pissed at such things because I can't keep this up. Sooner or later my life will sway towards one face and the others will just have to give in. But before that happens, I must make a decision which is for the better before my life becomes a spiral between faces.

 So Help Me God.