Having so much stress about these things

          Why does so many things have to trouble me? This here, this that. I can't bare the these things any more cause I just don't understand why I have to handle people's problems while I still have so many problems myself. The worst thing is I got more problems compared to you. Please note this, I might not help not because I don't want to but because I can't at the moment.

Hoping to be single until the right time

          Having a love is so difficult and yet sometimes I just don't understand how to really know weather or not the person has the same feelings for you or not. There was a girl that I really loved and I just thought that she had the same feelings for me as well. So as usual, I asked her to be mine and she didn't seem keen and so I wasted to give her some time for her to think. It was a week after when I received her answer.

        During the week, I could feel that she was trying to avoid any phone calls with me and she seemed to be really down. I wondered if she was doing it just to stay away from me and that was when I knew that she didn't have the same feelings for me as well. I was sad and a sense of failure started to sink in my heart as a I knew her answer had a really high chance or a rejection. My heart sank I but I never wanted her to know it cause I was afraid that she would feel guilty and it would kill me even more. So I just kept my thought and sadness to myself. She will never know how I feel.