Having so much stress about these things

          Why does so many things have to trouble me? This here, this that. I can't bare the these things any more cause I just don't understand why I have to handle people's problems while I still have so many problems myself. The worst thing is I got more problems compared to you. Please note this, I might not help not because I don't want to but because I can't at the moment.

Hoping to be single until the right time

          Having a love is so difficult and yet sometimes I just don't understand how to really know weather or not the person has the same feelings for you or not. There was a girl that I really loved and I just thought that she had the same feelings for me as well. So as usual, I asked her to be mine and she didn't seem keen and so I wasted to give her some time for her to think. It was a week after when I received her answer.

        During the week, I could feel that she was trying to avoid any phone calls with me and she seemed to be really down. I wondered if she was doing it just to stay away from me and that was when I knew that she didn't have the same feelings for me as well. I was sad and a sense of failure started to sink in my heart as a I knew her answer had a really high chance or a rejection. My heart sank I but I never wanted her to know it cause I was afraid that she would feel guilty and it would kill me even more. So I just kept my thought and sadness to myself. She will never know how I feel.

Is It Suppose To Like This

              Just recently, I have been trying to bring up the question on weather we should be more than friends but yet every single time I talk to you on the phone or even message. I just can't seem to get the courage and ask you. We talk and sometimes I get so excited that I start asking stupid questions and talk a little weirdly. Why is it that I can't seem to ask you that simple question? And why do I always feel like I'm saying the wrong words? I'm really so confused, can you help me out and give me a chance?

Getting Ready!!!!

                Here it comes, the moment that each and everyone of us that has not been waiting for. And that is a wonderful exam called SPM!!!!!! Every single day brings me closer to this very moment where it will determine whether or not I get a wonderful or a not so wonderful future. Every single day, rushing to study and catch up with so many things I left out. Now, my life is all about studies. Goodbye events, goodbye girlfriend, goodbye games and say hello to exams. Why can't it be much later? I can't escape the fact that life is going to be very messy very fast. Can someone just save me from this torture?!?!?!?

Boring Day

        First day of school after the two weeks of holidays. And today, there was so little things to do and I couldn't believe how boring school actually was. I just wish that the exam results will not make me sad.

The New Pet Of The House

        The new pet of the house is finally here! After the incident of my fighting fish where he died, we decided what to get as another pet and today. I finally made up my mind when I was at the pet store. There was a small red prawn there just sitting at the conner of the store and I knew, that was the pet for me. Yes it might be small but it is just what I need. This is the first prawn that I have as a pet and I'm really excited to see the prawn grow. I also then made up my mind to name this tiny little fellow RED.

A Long Day Out

           Today it has been a really long day out for me. Since 7.30am in the morning I have been at church helping out until 7.00pm. I couldn't believe this sense of stress and energy that I have used today. And the fondness in my heart is still here wishing that we could be together again. I really miss you but yet I don't dare to tell you cause I'm afraid you will think differently of me. How can I cope with this lack of energy and love at the same time? Really confused.